Hello there.
Long week. Long, crazy, emotional week.
When I came back in this bedroom to get some writing work done, I had a plan to really bang out some assignments/research, but I started to "fade", as my mother likes to put it, quite quickly. I am tired as shit, and a little drunk on vodka. However, I did send off some article ideas to the editor, so I was somewhat productive.
We found out today that we will be moving to a place out in the country in October, we were waiting to hear back from the landlords on confirmation. I gotta figure out my work situation- need something closer!
I feel like I haven't dressed up or worn heels in forever....I should organize something with my lady sluts to have a night out. Maybe. Or maybe the Kardashians are just influencing me again.
Kelly
August 31, 2013
August 28, 2013
Fighting Adulthood
Today is one of those days where I spend the whole day telling myself, "Bitch, build a bridge and get over it. Seriously." I wish I had my own private stage and sound system, where I could blast beats and just dance all my angst out.
I had a shitty day at work yesterday, and I am looking for something better (I knew from the get-go it was only temporary) yet at the same time, the idea of working full-time .....does not appeal to me. There. I said it. Yes, a former stripper that balks at the idea of full-time work, what do you know? What do you people expect when I used to make a month's salary in about a 14-hour time span? You would feel the same way!
It's not the work itself, I'm not a lazy person. However, a full-time schedule takes up so much of your life, ugh. That's what I do not like, having to save up your own fun until the weekend.
I have to put my 15-year old cat down this weekend. This issue has been weighing on me for some time now, and it sucks. He's not the first cat I've said goodbye to, and I've only had him since 2008, but he was with me during some very tumultuous and evolutionary times in my life. I hate losing pets, it hurts so much :(((
Thank you Blogger, for providing your therapy through writing. And you, dear readers, for being an audience for my bitching.
K
I had a shitty day at work yesterday, and I am looking for something better (I knew from the get-go it was only temporary) yet at the same time, the idea of working full-time .....does not appeal to me. There. I said it. Yes, a former stripper that balks at the idea of full-time work, what do you know? What do you people expect when I used to make a month's salary in about a 14-hour time span? You would feel the same way!
It's not the work itself, I'm not a lazy person. However, a full-time schedule takes up so much of your life, ugh. That's what I do not like, having to save up your own fun until the weekend.
I have to put my 15-year old cat down this weekend. This issue has been weighing on me for some time now, and it sucks. He's not the first cat I've said goodbye to, and I've only had him since 2008, but he was with me during some very tumultuous and evolutionary times in my life. I hate losing pets, it hurts so much :(((
Thank you Blogger, for providing your therapy through writing. And you, dear readers, for being an audience for my bitching.
K
August 27, 2013
Writing Bits
I still feel these days like I'm spread too thin with too many projects, and thus doing more wallowing than productive, forward-moving work. And eventually soon, I will have to take a full-time job so I can make decent money once again, and then I will have less personal time. Fuckin' adulthood.
Anyways, I know a lot of you have been waiting for my second published work, and I am still piecing together my dancing adventures. I think I'm going just throw all my memories down, the strange and crazy things that I was a part of or witness to during my eight years.
For those of you that haven't come (yes, pun intended ;) across my first published work, a wee bit of erotic poetry entitled Exposed, you can buy a copy here. Reading over those raunchy lines, it always makes me chuckle. I was such a different person eight years ago, a much hornier person. It was exhausting having that constant flow of hormones, good god. I wonder if I hadn't danced, how I would have "distributed" some of that energy....? In that way, dancing was the best way to do so, being as raunchy and erotic as I wanted, within legal limits of course. Quite a few of them are about my ex-husband, and when my bff first read through it, she put it down and said, "---- has never read this, huh?" There was some raw, brutal truth in what I wrote, and to this day, I'm not sure if he has ever sat down and read through all of it. I'm sure I would have remembered his reactions, har har. *sigh* We were such kids.
There are quite a few books published by ex-strippers, most of which are brilliant, shocking, hilarious compilations. However, I must do more research on whether there are some on dancing + life after dancing? And I don't mean the celebrity autobiographies.
Keep it kinky, folks.
K
Anyways, I know a lot of you have been waiting for my second published work, and I am still piecing together my dancing adventures. I think I'm going just throw all my memories down, the strange and crazy things that I was a part of or witness to during my eight years.
For those of you that haven't come (yes, pun intended ;) across my first published work, a wee bit of erotic poetry entitled Exposed, you can buy a copy here. Reading over those raunchy lines, it always makes me chuckle. I was such a different person eight years ago, a much hornier person. It was exhausting having that constant flow of hormones, good god. I wonder if I hadn't danced, how I would have "distributed" some of that energy....? In that way, dancing was the best way to do so, being as raunchy and erotic as I wanted, within legal limits of course. Quite a few of them are about my ex-husband, and when my bff first read through it, she put it down and said, "---- has never read this, huh?" There was some raw, brutal truth in what I wrote, and to this day, I'm not sure if he has ever sat down and read through all of it. I'm sure I would have remembered his reactions, har har. *sigh* We were such kids.
There are quite a few books published by ex-strippers, most of which are brilliant, shocking, hilarious compilations. However, I must do more research on whether there are some on dancing + life after dancing? And I don't mean the celebrity autobiographies.
Keep it kinky, folks.
K
August 26, 2013
Manic Monday
I realized a little bit ago that I am having a case of separation anxiety from my lover. We did have a fabulous weekend, and Monday mornings there's always this void that I have to try to fill with yummy weekend cooking leftovers and xxx video watching :P
Saturday was my graduation party that my sister and mother organized. Mom came up from the farm, and the party food was amazing-- totally Mediterranean, with rolled grape leaves, hummus, pita bread, salad with three types of olives, and minty falafel! For dessert there was vanilla and chocolate frosted cupcakes, so good :D I got to catch up with my godparents (yes, I have godparents, lol) and my good friends. It was so much fun :)
On Sunday my bf & I went to go look at a property for rent, out in the country. I hope we hear good news today, but he doesn't think we'll get it. Whatever the case, this fall is going to be full of changes and transitions. Bring it on, rest-of-2013. Already boxed down the first half ;)
Alright, time to go clean the litter box. For the 2,345,657th time. :P
K
August 16, 2013
Graduation
Don't worry guys-- I did graduate ;) Can I get a WHOOO HHOOOOOO!!! Only took me twice as long as it should have :P And I had many, many moments of doubt, and changed my major about three times. Last semester especially- Spring semester of 2013 was the only semester I kept a full-time schedule, and it was brutal! How do people go full-time through their whole degree? It is so fucking stressful! Oh yeah, they usually live at home with parents and don't work (if any of my readers hold at least a part-time job, live on their own, and go to school full-time, feel free to object in the comments sections). I was making the aggravating drive up to that campus about five times a week, then going to a job I had zero interest in anymore. There were many crying episodes in the shower, let me tell you.
But those clouds have passed, and its onto better and bigger things! Can I get an AMEN?
K
But those clouds have passed, and its onto better and bigger things! Can I get an AMEN?
K
August 12, 2013
Monday Manicure
So.
I turned in my final paper last night, and technically, I'm all done. I believe I did a pretty decent job on the paper, and I'm confident that I passed....why do I feel so anxious about graduating? I feel nervous that something is going to pop up, and whoops! There are some extra hoops to go through before I get my degree. Ack. These next couple of days before grades are released are going to be spent not thinking about it!
Anyway, happy Monday, y'all. Monday mornings, provided I don't have to go into work early, are spent watching the taped episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians (go on with rolling your eyes!) and giving myself a mani/pedi. Listen, it's my only guilty pleasure, and the only crap show I watch. And I can't stand having messed up nails. Plus, I usually end up working out for the last half of the show, so it's a good thing :D Except this morning- after my nails, I inhaled the rest of the delicious clam and parmesan pasta my lover cooked from last night. Yes, this bitch loves her carbs, and has no problem eating pasta for breakfast :D
I wonder if every retired dancer plans out her future dance studio in her future living arrangements? Yes, I want a big, open room, with about three floor-to-ceiling poles, one spinning. It's such good exercise, and with a little soundproofing, I could blast my favorite NIN beats ;)
K
I turned in my final paper last night, and technically, I'm all done. I believe I did a pretty decent job on the paper, and I'm confident that I passed....why do I feel so anxious about graduating? I feel nervous that something is going to pop up, and whoops! There are some extra hoops to go through before I get my degree. Ack. These next couple of days before grades are released are going to be spent not thinking about it!
Anyway, happy Monday, y'all. Monday mornings, provided I don't have to go into work early, are spent watching the taped episode of Keeping Up With the Kardashians (go on with rolling your eyes!) and giving myself a mani/pedi. Listen, it's my only guilty pleasure, and the only crap show I watch. And I can't stand having messed up nails. Plus, I usually end up working out for the last half of the show, so it's a good thing :D Except this morning- after my nails, I inhaled the rest of the delicious clam and parmesan pasta my lover cooked from last night. Yes, this bitch loves her carbs, and has no problem eating pasta for breakfast :D
I wonder if every retired dancer plans out her future dance studio in her future living arrangements? Yes, I want a big, open room, with about three floor-to-ceiling poles, one spinning. It's such good exercise, and with a little soundproofing, I could blast my favorite NIN beats ;)
K
August 08, 2013
The Thong Thursdays of Past Days....
Good morning, y'all.
I'm listening to my iPod, and having music blasting in my ears is making crave the stage.....but not my old one. A cleaner one, with more room to roll around :D I wish I had been able to really conquer the spinning pole, but alas extreme vertigo and nausea always followed. A non-spinning pole is no problem, other than the occasional painful pole burn. Yes, pole burn is very similar to rug burn, but usually involves more sensitive areas, har har. Ow.
Life has been very good to me lately, this is the most stable and healthy than its been for about ten years. I have an amazing, supportive boyfriend who's also my best friend. We's like peas and carrots, y'all <3
Cashiering is interesting. People come through my line from all walks of life, some are cool and you can crack jokes with them and chat, some are so damn miserable. I always wonder about the super bitchy customers, I wonder if that's their normal state of affairs or whether they are maybe just having a super shitty day. Perhaps they just lost a loved one, or their house is being repossessed, who knows?
Ok, I need to end this and get to work on other stuff. My final paper is due Sunday, and then I'M DONE! At least with this degree. I'm undecided whether I will pursue a Bachelor's in future, but it will not be happening for at least a year. I have a sneaking suspicion that I will miss the higher education system eventually, after at least a whole year, haha.
And even though I am several years behind on achieving this goal, oh well. Nothing I can do about that now. Plus, I feel like I got a damn good, well-rounded education during the four-ish years it took to get here. Schooled in various heavy subjects, like math, science, business, nakedness, marriage & divorce, mental illness, and life. Oh, and bacon. Can't forget the bacon lessons.
K
I'm listening to my iPod, and having music blasting in my ears is making crave the stage.....but not my old one. A cleaner one, with more room to roll around :D I wish I had been able to really conquer the spinning pole, but alas extreme vertigo and nausea always followed. A non-spinning pole is no problem, other than the occasional painful pole burn. Yes, pole burn is very similar to rug burn, but usually involves more sensitive areas, har har. Ow.
Life has been very good to me lately, this is the most stable and healthy than its been for about ten years. I have an amazing, supportive boyfriend who's also my best friend. We's like peas and carrots, y'all <3
Cashiering is interesting. People come through my line from all walks of life, some are cool and you can crack jokes with them and chat, some are so damn miserable. I always wonder about the super bitchy customers, I wonder if that's their normal state of affairs or whether they are maybe just having a super shitty day. Perhaps they just lost a loved one, or their house is being repossessed, who knows?
Ok, I need to end this and get to work on other stuff. My final paper is due Sunday, and then I'M DONE! At least with this degree. I'm undecided whether I will pursue a Bachelor's in future, but it will not be happening for at least a year. I have a sneaking suspicion that I will miss the higher education system eventually, after at least a whole year, haha.
And even though I am several years behind on achieving this goal, oh well. Nothing I can do about that now. Plus, I feel like I got a damn good, well-rounded education during the four-ish years it took to get here. Schooled in various heavy subjects, like math, science, business, nakedness, marriage & divorce, mental illness, and life. Oh, and bacon. Can't forget the bacon lessons.
K
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